Tis the Season to Make Resolutions
What is it about this time of year that makes people want to make resolutions? Is it inherent in the festivities or is it just we have reason to feel guilt in some respect for something we caught ourselves doing that we think should be changed? I'm voting for the latter, because it isn't even Christmas yet and New Years is 8 days away and I've already started cleaning my personal house.
I've examined myself and found places I know I can be a better person and have begun my own foggy self-improvement plan.
Statistics back me on the need for attention to diet, exercise and healthier habits. It sure isn't fun. I've realized I'm the one putting the restrictions on my goals, so I have to change the way I think.
After 3 ½ hours of my mind revealing to me all these things I've not lived up to in my own eyes instead of sleeping, I gave up trying and got up to write them down.
I realized my guilt is between my heavenly father and myself. I've been lax in attending church. I haven't prayed for others as I should be doing. And when I look at myself from His parental perspective I stand guilty of my own words judgment. How can I expect blessings from God if I don't find time to spend with Him other than when I want something from Him; after all there are 365 days in a year?
I know when it all started for me too. I can trace my acceptance of my own inability when I got hurt on the job and was laid up for 3 years. During that time I didn't have a strong enough family to stand on their own feet and I was in no condition to work; I needed to recuperate. So during that time I wound up loosing every cent of security I had worked for, my entire life, and wound up living in the street.
Living in the street isn't like camping. And it wasn't my choice to be there; my family threw me out when the money ran out.
I was devastated emotionally and weak physically. I lived in fear; cold and alone. It was then I finally looked up and asked my Heavenly Father what was I going to do?
Happy 2005
I've examined myself and found places I know I can be a better person and have begun my own foggy self-improvement plan.
Statistics back me on the need for attention to diet, exercise and healthier habits. It sure isn't fun. I've realized I'm the one putting the restrictions on my goals, so I have to change the way I think.
After 3 ½ hours of my mind revealing to me all these things I've not lived up to in my own eyes instead of sleeping, I gave up trying and got up to write them down.
- How can I expect something of someone else that I am guilty of myself?
I realized my guilt is between my heavenly father and myself. I've been lax in attending church. I haven't prayed for others as I should be doing. And when I look at myself from His parental perspective I stand guilty of my own words judgment. How can I expect blessings from God if I don't find time to spend with Him other than when I want something from Him; after all there are 365 days in a year?
- Why have I bought into the age limitation crap that's prevalent in these continental United States?
I know when it all started for me too. I can trace my acceptance of my own inability when I got hurt on the job and was laid up for 3 years. During that time I didn't have a strong enough family to stand on their own feet and I was in no condition to work; I needed to recuperate. So during that time I wound up loosing every cent of security I had worked for, my entire life, and wound up living in the street.
Living in the street isn't like camping. And it wasn't my choice to be there; my family threw me out when the money ran out.
I was devastated emotionally and weak physically. I lived in fear; cold and alone. It was then I finally looked up and asked my Heavenly Father what was I going to do?
- How can you love someone else if you can't love yourself enough to do what's right for you?
- I hope to make the 2005 Christian model of myself, one that genuinely cares about everyone I come in contact with. Love my neighbor as myself.
- I will do and care about others welfare, doing everything I can throughout the year; not just at Christmas; because, I discovered I received true joy in doing nice things for others and I'm just selfish enough to want to stay happy all year. For it is in the giving that I receive.
- I will show love to myself and others by being the best person I can be at all times and to all people; even those I don't like. All have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God; yet He forgave us and loved us in spite of our sins.
- I'm going to try to live, eat and be healthier for me because I like me and want the best for me. The healthier I am the more I can do for others, and that will please my Heavenly Father most. For if I speak words as tinkling bells but have not love I am nothing. Actions speak louder than words.
- So here's to all who make resolutions with good intentions. May we all achieve at least a part of what we hope for and all of what we work to achieve.
Happy 2005
posted by Jan myrz @ 9:00 PM
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